One thing that I don't think I've written about is Dad picking up specks of dust and dirt off the carpet. He always does it. HE could be sitting down on the chair and sees a little piece of paper on the floor he will look at it, point at it, reach for it and then take it to the garbage. He'll go all the way to the kitchen to give it to Yusara. He's been doing this for years.

It breaks my heart because it shows he's looking for something to do. He's bored.

He just sits and does nothing all day. He wants to do something