3D

3D stands for Deir Debwan Dilema.

I am considered one of their sons and yet I have left that part of my life and become a Christian which in Islam is an automatic death penalty. Few would carry it out but you never know. I am here with some people knowing about my TV show and my Christianity.

Last time I was here it reached a head --

Someone told Najwa that I spoke against Islam on TV. Then Dad wanted to go to the mosque. I would have to take him twice a day. I would take him and take off his shoes inside and pick him up and put on his shoes again. The men eventually got mad at me for not praying and they said they didn't want me to go to the mosque but to stand across the street.

One guy who is usually friendly said angrily as he passed by me "Isa could bring him."

One guy grabbed my hand once in front of Atta's store and started pulling me saying, "We want to draw you back to the mosque."

I'm listening to the my song "Everyone Wants to Be Free," on my headset.

My dilema is this. Will they hurt me? I feel I got a promise from God "Those who opposed you will be like nothing."

Here I am again.
I described in my last post the two events that I'm not sure about that happened in the last few days.
the guy who said "shaytan when i came to the bakery
the three guys walking one said "Isn't that the guy that....."


There's another thing.

I am mad at Yusara and I need to write this.
I am mad that she is planning to force me to stay here. I am staying largely because of Ihmaydi's gernous five month stay.  But they have asked me to stay a year. Mom doesn't like it. I'm not sure.
A lot of good things have happened here like preaching in RAmallah church twice and doing the youth group once. Preaching in Ramleh and getting all that money.

My conscience is at rest about Dad right now. There a bittersweet joy I have when I walk him. He is so cute when he talks and looks at you. Even when he gets mad. It makes me feel like a hero to be helping him. But I am angry at Nassri and Najwa that they aren't coming. They aren't coming because their mother won't let them. Nasri I'm not sure about why he won't stay. It make me mad. I keep planning in my head how I'm going to say "She will use the son of the Brazilian but won't let her children leave their work to help their dad."

It's different if it's from God, the Lord Jesus Christ.

I have some indication it is from God.

The blessing are many. I love going to church in Ramallah at night and coming home and eating fried chicken on the way.

I don't want to waste time though. I do have a television ministry in the U.,S.

In her favor Yusara has this. When  she and her kids did that little maneiuver last time, wile they she and Najat were walking out the gate to leave Dad, Dad held the car keys as if to give them to Najat she kept saying "Yabba we're just going for a walk." They weren't. But as he did that little maneuver that was so heartbreaking, Yusara turned and kissed him and returned to the house. She gave up the plan altogether.

She definately gets credit for that.

She is always a good cook. Hardly ever misses a meal.