Falafel and Humus Day

Today, I took Dad for a walk to the Falafel place against Yusara's wishes. He wanted to go and I wanted to take him for a long time. It wasn't that awesome but it was a milestone. He walked good.

Borderline sucky day. I've been thinking of smart responses to some of Yusara's constant Islamic and otherwise words. One thing she always says to my dad when he starts walking is: "Say I take refuge in Allah from the stoned one satan." Today I said, "The devil doesn't dare come near me." Then Yusara said, "Say in the Name of Allah the merciful and Compassionate." I said, "In the Name of the Messiah."

After we got Dad in bed, she went out to the porch in her all white mecca gown to pray. I left. I went to the pharmacy to buy tape for dad. The tape was five shekels last time. This time it was 10. I didn't say thank you or anything. I just left. I won't go there again.

 I came back and told Yusara about the tape. She empathized with me.

I am struggling a little being here.

  not married
  no house
  no money
  no job
  the feeling that I'm being used because Yusara won't let her son Nasri or daughter Najwa come help
  the only redemption is that Himaydi spent five months here.
  Dad is doing OK
  He gets mad at me sometimes.
  I am sitting outside right now in the cool breeze listening to Amazing Love which has become a main stay for me since I was in Jerusalem

I also am listening to the My Refuge with Jehovah Nissi
and The Lord Reigns with the I stand in Awe of You
Also I am listening to Mighty Warrior with "Oh Come Let us Sing."


The video of dad walking has almost 600 views on the first day

I brought dad some beer from Akel's non alcoholic. Yusara was mad. when I told her it was non alcoholoic she said "Yin'al kithbak," curse your lies.

I started putting together my book 1002 Days

I got to chapter 8 taking the stories from the book "The gray zone."

Ribhieh just got home

I talked to her a little

Camela came today and Akram will come tomorrow

Aziz, Magida's bro came by yesterday and brought figs for Dad


The grapes from Dad's grapevine are turning black now. Almost sweet

Amo Issa bring barqooq all the time and Yusara gets mad she doesn't want anything from him in the house