dad

there's been a few times I've wrestled with dad to stop him from taking his blankets off and and his clothes.

once 1he was on teh toilet and was trying to do something. i controlled his hands just to let him know i was stronger than him

another time i shoved him for taking his clothes off or peeing on

another time i yelled at him for taking a dump right after i changed his daiper

tonight i fought with him

i kept putting his blankets back on him and telling him to go back to sleep


i felt bad for everything tonight
1. i had to leave a meeting early to come help them put him to sleep
2. Yusra went on her "I can't do this...." shenanigans telling me not to be late again
3. Dad kept getting up. once he started to take his clothes off as if to take a bath and it was 10 p.m.

I feel bad for a few things:
1. that i don't have money to take him and her to America with me
2. thyt she has to put up with this and she has
3. that Ihmaydi puts up with it
4. Where JEsus said let the dead bury their dead

i worry he might be in pain
i see the