its been a while

i preached last sunday. am leaving Tuesday

it is passover week and the borders are closed

i have only 20 dollars left in my checking account

just had breakfast with dad

countdown five days
Friday
Saturday
Sunday
Monday
Tuesday

on Tuesday i have to go to take dad to hospital for c shot with Najat. it seems to have worked or helped

from 88 the psa or something like that went to 12
it should be 4
but the drop is significant and the doctor i spoke with yesterday told me it is very good

its a cold day. last night it was freezing in Ramallah and I was standing out there in just a short sleeve shirt and the blue flannel shirt. my fingers were freezing

i was invited by Hanna to have lunch with Pastor Monir and the kids from the school on Sunday..i said I would have to see how my dad is though I would like to go


been a rough couple of days

last night dad was restless. i wonder if he knows i'm leaving and is frustrated. I don't know.

how much does he know?

how much is he capable of caring about....

is it only simple basic issues that concern him -- food, warmth, society, going to bathroom,

he gets angry well..

he doesn't like it when we minimize his feelings or reaction....

i tried to get dad dressed to take him out but Yusra says let him sleep to where he stays up to 11 pm tonight. i don't like

am like plaster face now. wanted to take dad out Yura won't agree

today is Friday my least favorite day here. its either too quiet or too noisy.

I was trying to go out and so much pressure Y not to go out with him to the store. I deceided grudgingly to stay in and then she said if you want to go to Akel get water.

N. called for me to take car and take dad out

Dad came out and with the cane with four spikes on the bottom. and we walked up to Habsis house and he stopped. I said do you want to go back and he said go back  (irja')

we came in.

am inside now waiting for lunch so we can go out in the car

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talked to Pastor Monir about closure and he said taht I could go with them to Ramleh on Tuesday and then go straigth to airport with Michael

told Najat about Tuesday. she said we can go to Bir Nabala tomorrow to see Nasser and Diana's place